i am tired. i really am. i thk i need some time to myself. away from everythg. to just let me enjoy some time for myself which i hvnt done so in ages.

an exciting december ahead :)

kinda excited over the arrival of dec! yup cos this sun will be the pre tour briefing of my taiwan trip in dec! then following which, next wk will be Jean's wedding! the big event of the year hee then then it'd be long awaited for end of the year break! and when i come back, xmas is only days away!!! yippee!!! but well many activities means lots of time to catch up with my work needed. first mth end closing with my new job scope would start nxt wk. so that means strss level is building high next wk. boohoo.


flight time has been changed to past midnight. i love going to the airport at night cos it makes going overseas so exciting cos i mean hw often do u go to the airport late at night right? but well the bad part is i can never fall asleep on the plane and since the tour begins next day, i thk i better learn to be less fussy and jus fall asleep on the plane. hee.
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today is a real bad day. we hv been trying to handover our new job scope to colleagues since last wk.the person who is gg to handover to me keep saying she is v busy. ok everyone's busy so dont give me that excuse. so i tot ok nvm wat ab next mon latest since thu is closing alr. "oh but thu i got to do this writeup which is due on tue. and wed i got no time to brief you cos sure got amendments to make" i looked at her and told her closign is starting on thu. i need to learn. the next sentence if the most annoying sentence and the most irresponsible sentence i hv ever heard I will help you do closing( I just knew she wldnt be so kind. so read on). you do the difficult portion i do the easy portion anyone with a sane mind would that you that is nonsensical. for goodness sake, you nv handover to me hw i do the difficult part? yes i seldom blow up at ppl in face nv in office. so dont try ur luck. i was so mad at the sentence till i cld feel my blood pressure rising. urgh. irresponsible. yes you are gg on maternity leave next month. i m covering your duties but pls be more responsible in handing over. instead of cc me blindly all those stupid emails which i dont need info at all. handing over means clearing outstanding issues then hadnover. not throw ur shit to ppl for ppl to clear!!!

i thk my current job is really making me v drained. woke up this morning with a headache. then aft takign medication, now i feel really dizzy. i feel i can faint anytime. gosh. i hope i can still make my way out of office later safely. :(

Been really busy last few wks as there were alot of returns due. hmm looks like nov onwards will be even busier. Got news last wk that there will be job rotation in my team. that means new job scope. well i wont say its bad cos ultimately my new job scope will let me learn much more as compared to my current portfolio of departments. My current depts are not very active so nothing much to handle other than the occasional ad hoc projs which drive me nuts. well somehow it seems as if God is teling me i shldnt move out of my current job. I was so close in securing a job. Ended up being the last 2 to be shortlisted for the final interview. but the final one just has to fall on the day i had to attend a course. then subseq when I came back, I was told abt the new job scope. It seems like God is tellign me that either 1) the new job isnt suitable for me or 2) I shld stay i my current job to learn. Will definitely cont to pray for it.

ok time to wrk. ;)

Its easy to identify a problem. but somehw when you are asked to give an example, i find it quite hard. but well i found my answer...yes nothing fantastic. but well the ans is so simple but it showed that the existence of the prob back then. yup nonetheless i m glad i found the answer :)

Back in action!

It has been eons since I last blogged. 30 jul was like 2 mths ago. well lots of thgs have happened but first of all, i m so proud to announce that I am officially free from glasses!!! yes i finally picked up the courage to go for lasik after so much consideration and worry. to be honest lasik is not sth i wld hv considered. it was my doc who gave me that idea as I always had eye infections from wearing contact lenses. after asking so many ppl who has done it before, and reading up, i finally picked up the courage to do so. I must say the peace of God was with me esp on the day of the surgery. even right before I went in, I was still joking with my mom in the waiting area, where I was in the surgery robe all ready to go in. no fear was in me at all. the whole process was fast as well. and i must say God's healing hands were on me throughout the whole recovery process. immed aft i came out from the surgery, i cld see my dad frm afar without glasses. though a bit hazy still. though the first day was kind of stingy whenever i put eyedrops, by the 2nd day my vision was almost perfect. :) really must thank God for His healing hands. after going through so much, i m now tking terrribly gd care of my eyes. no more lying down on the sofa and watching tv. disciplined lynette :)


and yup i m officially one yr old in my first job! :) yes its making me real tired. really looking fwd to my 8-day trip to taiwan during at the end of the year. kind of excited for it man. ten of us will be going tog!! :) first time travelling in such a big grp. wonder hw it'd be.

ignorance is bliss. I finally see the true meaning of this statement lately. sometimes sth can be put right in my face but yet i dont see or sense them. well one can say i m 'blur like sotong' but well i take it as God shifiting my eyes on sth else. cos whatever that i see might upset me or hurt me. during last sun's sermon, the speaker told us to thk of small little ways of hw God has revealed Himself to us. It can be as simple as giving you a parking lot in a busy carpark. in a way it reminds me of hw sometimes God can really "blind" my eyes.

and before i end off this post, I really want to thank some of my cell grp ppl. you guys know who you are. once in a while, a short msn msg really warms the heart. esp when i go online at night. when u fel so drained and tired, all it takes is a "hw are you?", "it has been so long since i last talk to you" or "hows work?", which makes u feel loved and remembered.

worklife is taking up like 90% of my life

As you can tell from the frequence of my posts, worklife is really taking up 90% of my life. I have no time to do thgs which i Like. even to the extent that sitting down and enjoying an episode or 2 of korean drama is so tough. to be able to do so will make it such a luxury. I keep telling myself God has put me in my workplace for a reason. And I am there to find out the reason. my colleagues always tell me dont knw why last time b4 u came your portfolio is the easiest to handle blah blah and now that u are here everythg seems so complicated. they call it 'suay'. but i believe that God is providing me opportunties to learn and to gain as much experience as i can now. but the sad thg is in my workplace, ppl rise faster and higher cos they are older than u. so what if you knw more than that person? its useless when you are younger. well though i must admit i was shocked in seeing what i saw today, and upset for that aft, but well God has picked me up again. I m fine now. I have learnt hw to be contented with what i have been given.

ppl come and go in our lives. But do we remember how each of them impacted our lives? 10 yrs down the road willl u still rem who the person is? much has happened lately that makes me want to tell my close frens hw much I love all of you. Yes we may not meet up often cos of my hectic worklife, but you are always remembered. Always in my thoughts and prayers =D

Made an impt decision on friday. Hope i made the right choice. It'd be a new beginning. Sth which I have not experienced for a very long time. =)

Sth to share... I came across this meaningful passage while reading the bible today. it is psalm 91. About hw God's protection is always with us so long as we call upon the Lord. i exceptionally like these verses:

9 If you make the Most High your dwelling— even the LORD, who is my refuge- 10 then no harm will befall you, no disaster will come near your tent.11 For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways;12 they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.

random blabbers

been meeting quite a few people in my dpt these months. many come and some have left. and i hv been assigned to be the buddy or mentor to these newbies. faced with an unhappy incident today. right in front of the boss A appears to be so confident. she doesnt need to tk down wat the boss is saying tho its just the first mth into her work. but then once of out the boss' eyes there i get phone calls from A asking me what to do. and in front of boss, A has already mentioned that she knws exactly what to do. apparently it gives the boss an impression that I learn thgs slow cos i hv been in the co for a period longer than her. Have tried to tell myself that maybe she is just unsure thats why need to ask again. but hey this is happening too many times to make me believe she is purely unsure. well i m just gg to be a nice buddy and teach her whatever she needs to know. at least i have fulfilled my responsibility.

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work has been really bad in these recent mths. just because i m new to the working world, know less things and hence more questions, i hv gotten facial expressions telling me " oh this is so easy, u mean you dont knw? " and " oh stop asking" though not spoken, all these hurt. much more than hurtful words. well i wont say all the ppl in my co is like that. some are really nice and i really appreciate them for that.

and the most maddening thg is others can ask even stupider qn and not get such expressions just cos they will 'retaliate'. its just so unfair. well no matter what i just keep telling myself that i dont need the gain the favour of all these ppl. They may treat me badly but i knw I have God's favour and we are all precious in God's sight.

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on a better note tmr i will be knocking off 1.5 hr earlier. claiming time off. well cheap thrill cos its only 1.5 hr earlier which means running out at 430 but well better than nothg. Maybe i will drop by town b4 heading home. need to destress. seriously i nv appreciated shopping alone until i started work. sometimes u feel so cooped up at work then i just wan to be alone. away from everythg and everybody.

and tmrs thu. and at least there is cG to look fwd to for thsi wkend! gdnite =D