random blabbers

been meeting quite a few people in my dpt these months. many come and some have left. and i hv been assigned to be the buddy or mentor to these newbies. faced with an unhappy incident today. right in front of the boss A appears to be so confident. she doesnt need to tk down wat the boss is saying tho its just the first mth into her work. but then once of out the boss' eyes there i get phone calls from A asking me what to do. and in front of boss, A has already mentioned that she knws exactly what to do. apparently it gives the boss an impression that I learn thgs slow cos i hv been in the co for a period longer than her. Have tried to tell myself that maybe she is just unsure thats why need to ask again. but hey this is happening too many times to make me believe she is purely unsure. well i m just gg to be a nice buddy and teach her whatever she needs to know. at least i have fulfilled my responsibility.

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work has been really bad in these recent mths. just because i m new to the working world, know less things and hence more questions, i hv gotten facial expressions telling me " oh this is so easy, u mean you dont knw? " and " oh stop asking" though not spoken, all these hurt. much more than hurtful words. well i wont say all the ppl in my co is like that. some are really nice and i really appreciate them for that.

and the most maddening thg is others can ask even stupider qn and not get such expressions just cos they will 'retaliate'. its just so unfair. well no matter what i just keep telling myself that i dont need the gain the favour of all these ppl. They may treat me badly but i knw I have God's favour and we are all precious in God's sight.

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on a better note tmr i will be knocking off 1.5 hr earlier. claiming time off. well cheap thrill cos its only 1.5 hr earlier which means running out at 430 but well better than nothg. Maybe i will drop by town b4 heading home. need to destress. seriously i nv appreciated shopping alone until i started work. sometimes u feel so cooped up at work then i just wan to be alone. away from everythg and everybody.

and tmrs thu. and at least there is cG to look fwd to for thsi wkend! gdnite =D